A letter for when I can't call you...
I badly wanted to call you and remind you of these little things, but I also didn’t want to call you and force you to talk.
I wanted to call you and check up on you, but I felt maybe you are done answering calls. So I didn’t want to put you in trouble. To be honest, I have no idea what to tell you. Is there anything I can say to make you feel better? I think not. Maybe this is one of those situations where words sound hollow and where sentences make no sense.
Things are definitely terrible and not at all fair. But the world and life here have never been fair. Why is it that the nicest people have the worst possible luck? I don’t have answers. I don’t think reading this is going to help…
Just please do take care of yourself, don’t fall into that despair, that bad place. Take your time and grieve in your own way. Take care of your mental and physical health.
The past few weeks seem to have been torture, endless work, not catching a break, everything sucks. But we are all here. Take a break, take some time off, maybe next month plan and take some time off. Catch a break. Relax.
I know things are bleak, but I just wanted to say don’t exhaust yourself, whether you realise it or not, many people depend on you, your family, your friends and of course me. I cannot stress enough how many times you’ve quite literally saved my life. (Sounds dramatic but really) I badly wanted to call you and remind you of these little things, but I also didn’t want to call you and force you to talk.
Take your time.
Love ya loads.